Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Dinner alone

Leftovers.




Dear Do (because I know you're reading this),

Right now, you're in the air somewhere between here and Chicago. Which is a shame, because cooking dinner isn't nearly as fun without you. I mean, I was almost too lazy to assemble my fajita/burrito, even though you'd prepared and carefully packaged all the components last night. As for utensils, a plate, a place mat? Forget it. I ate dinner while standing in the kitchen. Why bother taking the extra time? Which is kind of funny, given that I'm the fastidious one who insists on napkins and place mats.

I'm bemused at how little I want to cook, with no one to cook for. Is it because there's no one to share the resulting creation with, no one to appreciate the intimate moment known as dinner time? I feel completely lethargic and culinarily apathetic. I really enjoy cooking with you, for you. I find it really fun to participate in your culinary adventures, offering unwanted tips while washing your prep bowls, sampling your creations and trying to argue you out of adding wine and/or hot sauce. I love how you always find something worth complimenting when I set dinner on the table, and how any less-than-optimal parts of the dish are always the recipe's fault, never mine. The two of us huddling over cookbooks on Saturday mornings, over tea, passing recipe clippings back and forth, is disgustingly endearing. I love how much you, and we, have gotten into cooking. It really makes my day, every day.

You should have landed two minutes ago. I'll see you in 39 hours.

Oh, and Do? I just accidentally bit into one of the many jalapeños that you added to the fajita chicken. It nearly seared my taste buds off; what on earth were you thinking??

15 comments:

kat said...

i know what you mean by it being no fun to cook alone just for yourself. My husband will be gone for a week & I'm having a hard time imagining what I'll eat. What did I do when I was single?

Trevor said...

I'll take your leftovers any day.

I agree, I don't have anyone to cook for any more and I find it sad that my motivation has almost all but flown out the window resulting in less than appetizing meals.

Krysta said...

ahhhhhh! that's so sweet but i totally know what you mean.

giz said...

Awwww... you went sucky on us. I eat alone nearly every night - it's not so bad. Well, I shouldn' say that - the dogs eat with me all the tiime.

But it is sweet to see such devotion and that you're missing him. He made sure you'd miss him by burning your buds off - he'll also live to regret it :)

kittie said...

When I was newly single I think I cooked even more than when I was coupled up - I had more time on my hands and could cook whatever I wanted! Though I suppose I am always a solitary cook anyway - it's just now I have to do the dishes too!

Cheer up, hon, you'll be together again soon!

Ramona said...

Cooking is better when your doing it for someone. When I'm alone I don't cook as much-I microwave.

That Girl said...

I started cooking when I moved away on my own, so for me there's never been a difference when the hubs is out of town. However, when I'm not home to cook, his dinners look suspiciously like taco bell.

noble pig said...

Oh no alone! It is a bummer cooking when it's just you..it's never the same.

Psychgrad said...

Very sweet. R and I cook together, but he's not one to go through cookbooks with me and try out new and uncharted food territory. I just get an inordinate amount of pleasure watching him eat a good meal.

I'll be by myself for about 3 weeks next month and I'm already stressing about the idea of cooking for one.

StickyGooeyCreamyChewy said...

Very sweet post. Even after 20 years, I still feel the same way about cooking for one.

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Shaun said...

Neen ~ As much as I love to cook, I have been finding that separation from my angelheart Eric has really dampened my kitchen spirits. Some days they are up, though. Fortunately, you do not have to be apart from Do for very long - and he was sweet enough to prepare dinner for you!

melissa said...

hahaha he put jalapenos in, to mess with you. too funny.

very loving sentiments, neen. I feel the same about steve. there's a satisfaction in cooking for someone else, watching them enjoy what you've created.

Mike of Mike's Table said...

Cooking alone or not for anybody definitely isn't the same. I used to make some pretty abominable creations during those periods...lol, never again! Now I take the opportunity to cook all the things my wife would hate if she were there (e.g. duck, onions, etc). Its not the same, but its something to keep me busy!

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White On Rice Couple said...

It's so great to read that you two enjoy being in the kitchen together. Cooking together and sharing the end results and the fruits of your labor is really gratifying. We feel the same way. Being in the kitchen is not the same without the other person in it.